here’s my belief: everyone goes through a time in their life when they realize that they have to start taking care of themselves, by themselves.
people can’t exist with the constant disillusion that there will always be someone to hold their hand. i remember hearing a quote once…
"Sometimes the greatest place to find a helping hand is at the end of your own arm."
however, i also believe that this ideal cannot be achieved without some sort of kick. something to convince you that this is true. no amount of advice from others can fully convince someone of this fact (at least in my experience). i had been conditioned, as many in this society are, to rely on the help of others for my survival. this is only natural. but i feel that there comes a time when we have to learn to fend for ourselves, that is also a natural process. without certain events that have passed in my life (the cancer in my family, my past relationships and especially my experience with abuse) i would not have been able to fully accept this fact.
the way i see it, we only have one life to live. i know that i don’t want to live mine by constantly looking for shoulders to cry on or people to take care of me. not when i know that the only thing i truly need in this world in order for my life and sense of self to persist, is me. i can take care of myself, i can love myself enough to make it through the tribulations that i face, i am the only one who can truly tell me what is right or wrong, what i can or cannot do. nothing else can control my life, other than my own hand.